well .........i admit I would prefer a world and I would prefer any lover under the conditions that true love means you never have to say your sorry.      I wish I could ever speak or write regarding this subject  with the one I was shure nature or god or whatever you like had chose for me and thats all I could ever say,end of it i suppose although my heart will never stop hurting from it.I alwayse knew that!         well good thing my friends keep me in line when i'm eating late night pizza with extra special toppings ya know.I have remorse for writing dumb things but done will always b. HA  ALMOST BRILLIANT!!!!!!!!!!APOLOGIZING TO THE IMAGINARY WHILE OTHERS IMAGINE THINGS OF ME!!!!!!!!           ALL LOVE IS A GIFT WHICH IS A SPECIAL THING INDEED.PERSONAL IS BELIEF BUT NONETHELESS THE SPIRIT WILL NEVER BED.THIS IS AN IMPORTANT LESSON IF YOU CHOOSE TO NAME IT.ALL LOVE IS CELEBRATED FROM EVERYONE, MOST ESSPECIALLY THOSE CHOSEN TO C THE WORLD IN A SANER WAY ALTHOUGH CALLED "CRAZY".LAYTER ON THIS ONE FUR SHURE

Either way,regarding valentines day and experiencing love it looks like I was saying something different then what I intended.Here is a new attempt.Sometimes life seems to conspire against two people who have always liked and love each other from being together for a time or perhaps a lifetime.Most people have heard "if you love someone set them free". This actually happens regardless of whether either partner needs a break . After 18 years of a serious physical,emotional and to whatever extent "spiritual" relationship with a partner, both of you know where you stand with each other as far as love,compassion and understanding.You know how much the other person can help and how the other person can inadvertently hinder or stifle personal growth.Add feeble elderly in laws and dysfunctional children from another marriage plus various forms of confinement due to all the above and economic conditions and perhaps you, reader could imagine how strong love has to be shared  for a  couple to stand behind each other in the now considering they must   part for the best concerned .Gee, you have no idea how much I wish this was just a rationalization after a short 5 or 7 year relationship.I hate to say this but with all the stress,we were told by several seasoned couples therapists that we are unusually strong and well, in comparison to the vast majority of folks in our situation.I thought my partner teuely deserves most of the credit. I don't mean permanent separation but separation that has to be done to create the necessary room for self growth for both partners,including others they are responsible for. This solitary walk we sometimes have to make  may and often does results in permanent separation.Convoluted maybe, but that's what I meant as far as having a hard valentines day in terms of fully embracing the love I share with another.As far as my use of "crocodile", this is a personal joke I make when someone says "c u later , Alligator".    I'm sort of flabbergasted  by this as that makes whover said it "a Crocadile", which is much larger and dangerous than the alligator.This is all very personal for people but I am in a position to share sincere remarks on what I'm going through and experiencing as a social animal partially in the  naive hope that there is someone in a position to read listen , and ...... a healthy human being creates harmony when thoughts,words and actions are not in conflict.THANX TO MY NAIVTE' I HAVE BEEN APROPRIATELY BEATEN LIKE A GONG FOR WINE-ING-ING-ING IN THIS POST.COMPLICATED LONG TERM RELATIONSHIPS FOR SOME LEAD TO COMPLICATED DIVORCES

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